WORKING WITH FAMILYby Vanessa Ruane Working with family can be so frustrating. My boyfriend and I team up often together and as good as it can be, because he is so great to create with on set. His lighting and composition are so creative and he’s so Macgyver when it comes to making things out of nothing. But when it comes to putting it together he can be so irritating. Kris has been taking on the challenge of learning editing and has been helping with the capturing of the enormous amount of editing I have on my plate. Now he’s in the timeline and learning how to assemble so we have been clashing on how we see the final edit. It’s good to have someone challenge your concept or bring another perspective to the table but it’s an argumentative process with family vs. the more tactical way I work with strangers. I’ve been mentally off too since yesterday. I have an irrational fear of needles and face it yearly to donate blood. I feel it’s a really important thing to do in life. It’s one of the ways you can help make a difference in the world. I feel and over obligation because my blood, on top of being universal also carries an anti-body to a virus that makes it the blood they use for babies and pregnant moms. I get so anxious and have to fight the irrational fear for an hour or so before and then after I donate I always end up exhausted and crashed out for the rest of the day. It reminds me how sensitive our bodies are. It also triggers an emotional reaction that leaves me feeling overly sensitive and triggers my fear of death. We are experiencing a heat wave here in Los Angeles and 15 people have died with heat related injuries. What’s most shocking is the age range was between 26 and 76. We are so vulnerable. I feel so connected to that vulnerability. When I am not in the obsessive thinking of a story or have the exhausting hours of production days to distract me, I remember in the down time to feel the moment. Enjoy it to the fullest while I remember to feel it. Return from Working with Family to Watch Films Online
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