Vanessa Ruane Blog March 20th
Vanessa Ruane – What She Thinks, What She Knows In my thirty-four years on the planet earth the one adage I agree with the most is the only thing certain about life is uncertainty. My life has shifted and taken me as far East as the Czech Republic and Hungary, as far North as Holland, Alaska and Canada, as far South as Mexico and Puerto Rico and as far West as Hawaii. Through all my travels I have learned that despite the evidence of what we are doing to the planet, human beings can be wonderful. Of course I’ve stumbled through negative but consistently the universe has revealed to me the generosity of strangers. I know that life is abundant and that there is plenty to go around and share and yet despite that I still often struggle with jealousy. In my opinion Greed is the root of most of the modern worlds problems. I struggle with those feelings in myself, the wanting the needing of more. It seems part of my generation and the American experience. But it is my goal to recognize those moments and remind myself of all that I have when that feeling comes up. My life and my art, the line blurs and they become entwined. The goals that I have as a person transfer over to the goals of my characters. The ultimate high for me is brining a room full of people to the heightened feelings of the human experience through film. I pursue this dream with all my passion but equally important I know is to close the computer at times and connect with the people in my life. A delicious slow cooked meal with friends and family is equally rewarding. Last year I took a flying leap into the freelance world, leaving behind a steady job to pursue filmmaking full time. In the past year I have faced my biggest fear – no steady income. I feel more challenged with my beliefs about the world then I have since I lived with a backpack and by sticking out my thumb. But despite feeling anxiety I am still following my dreams. I always have tried to be the best person that I can be and those goals transfer to my thoughts about how to lead a film crew, to bring humanity to my set and respect for my crew. To stay as positive as I can through all the hurdles that come at you from trying to get your projects made, to bringing that same attitude when sitting in traffic or in line at the grocery store.
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