Precious talks about her road to becoming an actor
When I was younger I never wanted to be an actor or work in the movies, because I thought it was phony and fake and crazy. I grew up in show business and as I child it seemed like a strange thing to do for a job. Donít get me wrong, I thought my dad and Cheechís movies were great. I remember sitting in the backseat of the car while my parents drove us home from a screening of Cheech and Chongís Next Movie. I leaned forward and said ďDad, I think youíre going to win an OscarĒ. I mean Cheech, naked, on the outside of a glass elevator while the Stones ďSatisfactionĒ played. Genius.
Then I became an actor.
I also vowed Iíd never marry another actor. I saw how hard that was. My sisterís marriage to an actor didnít work out. My mom struggles with being in the shadow of my dadís celebrity and her own artistic desires. Hell, Iíve struggled with that shadow.
Then I married an actor.
It ainít easy. Iím competitive. I need to own that. And when I donít feel good about myself creatively that competitiveness turns into comparing and jealousy. And as anyone in a relationship knows, one of the perks of that arrangement, is that you have someone (other than your family) to project all your bullshit onto. So thatís what Iíve been doing with Wes. When he got the call from the director for a movie that we both put ourselves on tape for, my first emotion wasnít ďthatís great WesĒ it was ďf-that, why didnít I get a call?Ē. Not my proudest moment.
SoÖ I need to take back my projections and focus on my own stuff. Right. Okay. Iíll make a list. I love lists. Donít you love lists? They make me feel like I have a modicum of control. And yes I did use the word modicum. Here it is;
1.take back my projections and focus on self 2.be grateful for what I have 3.take care of myself creatively (find a class, write, perform) 4.get quiet inside and listen to my instincts
I did take a Bouffon class with Adam Lazarus. It was fantastic. I just wanted to have fun and creative. And I did. It felt very free. The following week he had a Characters class, but I didnít plan it well enough with childcare so I couldnít take it. Which brings me to the next thing I swore Iíd never do.
Have a kid and still be an actor who also has a Joe job.
I know. I know. I have a lot of rules. Which is a joke, right? It only makes the Universe laugh and proceed to bring that right into my life. Okay soÖ