Jammy Yoon Blog March 30thBut as I continue to live my life after college (I don't thank the Lord enough for that) I begin to see more of what actually matters. The creative process is hard mostly because it deals with two realms of the 'spiritual' and 'physical'. It's a lonely world even when it doesn't have to be and it's hard to separate that from who I am in ordinary life. A lot of what I do in screenwriting revolves around the worlds of other characters while being intensely aware of a separate audience watching from afar. This duality has its strengths when trying to enhance the richness of ones work but it has slowly crept into my normal everyday. Not to mention the fact that as I try to devote myself to God more and more duality becomes a stronger theme in the day to day. And there I go again, mixing business with pleasure. Or is it business with business? I'm not fighting for childishness, I've learned a lot about art and healthy living since entering and leaving college. And I know I'm not perfect. Even in a 'spiritual' sense sanctification makes its emphasis in constant growth and maturity, in debunking ignorance and foolishness. But if there's one thing that I desire (possibly too much) in life and art, it'd be the delicate balance of re-attaining childhood while pursuing perfection (even though that's impossible in this life). I always want to go back, to simpler times, to simpler thoughts...they, if both combined, make for joyous life appreciation. I believe in the objective creature of storytelling and I also believe in the objective storyteller. There is something immensely profound and simple in all of this. The Creator in HIStory is evidence of that dual nature of spiritual and physical, the course of events working through the physical which always have underlying invisible tendencies (emotion, realization, blessing and consequence). This is what I believe and this is my struggling worldview. I say struggling because things are not perfect (me included). I'm surrounded by a post modern atheistic culture. The practice of righteousness (given by faith, which is also given by God) is of the utmost to me, and as I hope and trust in the Ultimate Storyteller, I know He will leave His prints on all that I touch...hopefully having dirty lenses and film prints to start with.
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