GOOD-BYE CALIFORNIA LICENSE
Iím late on my deadline, but really I havenít much to say. Iím putting together a website, finally, so Iím excited about that. Iím going away soon to do a show in Winnipeg and itís touring Northern Manitoba and Ontario in January! Iím sure Iíll have lots to write about then. Itís a solo show. Iíve probably
Iíve started to be a part of a goal group. We meet once a week and state our goals. Itís all women. I was part of one in Los Angeles too. Mostly my good girlfriends and a lot of them were also in Girls on Stilts. It was amazing that we sustained it as long as we did. About 5 years. And we accomplished a lot of our goals along the way. I think there is something powerful about a group of women getting together. So Iím happy to be a part of one here.
Mostly though Iím trying to get clear about what it is I really want. What I want my life to look like. I had this dream the other night and in it I was at this jewelry store with this man whom I guess I was dating but Iím not sure. Anyway we were there to pick up some gifts and there was something I wanted. I had a choice between getting the real version i.e. silver or white gold or the fake copy. The price wasnít that much more. I was torn. A part of me wanted, or should I say, was inclined to take the cheaper version. Not to get too new agey but I think Iíve done that in my life. So maybe Iím in a place to make a choice and allow myself the real deal.
Jack and I were in Los Angeles for a visit. There was a heat wave so we went to the beach and swam in the pool. We saw my parents and my brother. I saw my friends. I appreciate Los Angeles but itís not home anymore. Weird.
Even more symbolically, I finally got my Ontario license and on a very cold and miserable October day they took my California one away. ďI donít get that back?Ē I asked. She shook her head, ďThatís why I gave you a copyĒ she replied. I almost cried.Even though it was going to expire in less than a year and the picture looked ďlike I belonged in a homeĒ to quote my dad, thanks to an unfortunate hair cut that included very short bangs. It still made me a bit sad.
Okay. So my life is here. Iíve got my eye on this amazing black goose down winter coat. The kind they wear on movie sets. Long with a hood. Itís gorgeous and itís the kind of coat Iíll need if Iím going to winter in Manitoba.